Wednesday, December 23, 2020

Advent: Moving

I moved out of the house when I was 16.

As I recall, the process started sometime before then. I expressed an interest to my parents in becoming an exchange student, and once the idea had won their acceptance, we began exploring the process together.

No one really knew what the process involved, except that it started with an application. There were questions I had to answer, essays I had to write, endorsements from adults I had to procure. There were interviews I had to go through, in person and on the phone. More questions, more essays. and finally resolution: I was going to Rotorua, New Zealand, where I'd been matched with a family called the Hannahs.

At the end of the process was another process. I'd already got a passport. Now I had mere weeks to learn about New Zealand, get any necessary vaccinations for travel, buy tickets and supplies, and do whatever else I had to do to prepare my life and the people whose lives intersected it for the massive disruption that was about to ensue.

I've moved a number of times since then. Back to Pittsburgh. To college. To Haiti. To an apartment in Easton, Pa. To New Jersey. It's never as simple as going from A to B; there's always a process, there's always planning, and there's always a change in store: for me, for those who give with me, for those I move among, and for those I leave behind.

And isn't that what this season is? Advent is a moving notice. God is moving into the empty apartment next door. He hopes his parties don't get too loud, but if they do, please come knock on his door and let him know.

God's from a far-off country, but he's been dreaming for years of coming to town and being neighbors with us. Which pubs serve the best beer for thirsty people, cook the best food for hungry people, and provide the best place for strangers to meet?

When you're new in town, what's a good place to go for a walk? Where can you go to unwind?

The first advent ended, we're told, when God got a lease with some working-class newlyweds who taught him the local language, set him up with a trade, and helped him for a while to keep a low profile and blend in. That move-in, we are told, turned the world on its ear.

And now in the season in which we celebrate that first Advent, we wait for the second one, harder to see because it's by faith, when the move will be permanent, and the glory will be unhidden.

Friday, December 18, 2020

Advent: Joy

Joy is intimate.

Joy is the family who gather around the table with you for a meal, for game night, or for storytime. It's the friends who grow old with you, but it's especially the one who keeps you young.

Joy is timeless.

Look back at your wedding, at the birth of your children, at moments you joined your friends to do something incredibly irresponsible if not actually illegal, and you'll see joy there. She catches your eyes, and waves hello from the past, and you can't help but laugh with her. But when turn your eyes to the future, you'll find that she's there too, still waving but waiting for you. You can see her in the fields of tomorrow, as your children find their footing and make their own way; as dreams come true and even when they make way for other dreams. "There's no hurry," she whispers, and you realize she's here with you too.

Joy is one of life's constants.

We think of joy in terms of big events: a birth at St. Peter's, a wedding in Atlanta, a reunion of friends in Tuscon. But joy is woven like a golden thread through the small things: the touch of fingers as a glass of lemonade passes from one hand to another, in the morning ritual of spotting and counting tropical birds, in the small talk between father and daughter on the front stoop in the summer evening. It is in these moments, sewn together, that life's value is found.

Joy is like a river.

The salmon live in the river, but the river isn't always gentle. It has bends, it has twists and turns, and it has rapids and falls that compel the salmon to make astonishing leaps. The divine joy can be like that as it sweeps us along. It may buffet us and toss us about, but there is no other place to be, because it is where we come alive.

Joy is permanent.

One day fire will grow cold. One day the stars will close their eyes. One day the music will cease and the dancers will quit the floor. One day the audience will leave, the house lights will dim, and we'll find ourselves alone, except for joy.

Sunday, December 06, 2020

Advent: Remember


There’s an old and familiar practice of remembering the past.

Our calendars are rounded out with reminders: holidays like Thanksgiving, the Foirth of July, and 9-11; wedding anniversaries, birthdays and adoption days; tokens from special trips, first dates.

Looking back is a guide to the future. The friend who listened as you broke down one September evening is a friend who will stand by you always. The friend who always stood you up on lunch plans is as trustworthy as a wet turd.

Advent is about remembering ahead. It’s about counting down to a promise not yet delivered, based on memories of what was promised before, and whether those promises were kept.

Saturday, December 05, 2020

Advent: Perceive

There are a lot of categories to things we know. There’s what we assume, what we’re told, and what we believe, for instance. There’s also what we read, what we experienced, and what we figured out the hard way, which is probably the stuff we value most and have the hardest time unlearning.

Then there’s what we perceive. It’s got a stronger basis than guesswork, and it’s not as blunt as what we figure out the hard way way. Perception goes beyond mere appearances and reaches the heart of the matter. It’s sound judgment with a sharp tip, and it goes far.

Perceived. You can almost see the analysis bowing back, hear the soft release of the bowstring and listen to the perceived truth slicing the air as it races forward.

I perceive you are a woman of integrity. I perceive I have done better than I hoped.

Advent is many things. Chief among these is the end to a period of profound and prolonged waiting, divinely ordained, that reveals the truth of our perceptions of what we have been waiting for.

May all your perceptions be accurate, and may they guide all your arrows home.

Friday, December 04, 2020

Advent: Awesome



For as long as Icarus could remember, his father had loved watching birds.

The hobby had begun soon after they had arrived in Knossos. The king there had hired Daedalus to design a prison that could contain one of the more monstrous of the kingdom's secrets, and from the day Icarus' father had begun work on the Labyrinth, he had taken the boy with him every morning, every evening and every free moment they had together to watch the birds.

"Observe how they fly," the older man had said. "They can teach us about the currents of the air, and how to ride them."

Or: "Look at this bird, and how long its wings are, compared to its body."

Or: "See these feathers, and how different they are from these others. Why do you think they are different?"

Or: "See the sharp beak of the bananaquit, how like a knife it is! We must always avoid these birds when they swarm."

Spring gave way to summer, and when summer's leaves fell from the trees, winter arrived; and though the years passed and the construction of the Labyrinth was complete, they remained in Knossos. The king paid Daedalus generously to improve the royal bath, which he did by designing a shower with water both hot and cold, and still the promised day of departure never arrived.

Icarus would broach the subject with his father, but Daedalus would laugh and rough the young man's hair as though he were still a boy, and tell him to gather more feathers for their studies.

And then one day Daedalus took his son to the highest tower of the palace, and Icarus realized that his father had seen from the beginning the trap Minos had set, and had for years been planning their escape. The outfits he had made for them looked ridiculous, but Icarus knew they would work. He had joined his father in studying the birds of the Aegean and Adriatic seas for over 20 years, and he knew they would fly.

But before they did, Daedalus had two words of advice for his son. “One, don't fly too close to the sea. The feathers will become waterlogged, and you will fall into the sea, and drown. And two, don't fly too high. The sun is the chariot of Helios; and it moves in spheres too glorious, too awesome for mortals. If you go too close, you will be consumed in its fire.”

And with that, the older man led the way to freedom. With a mighty shout he threw himself from the top of the palace, and began flying to his home on the distant mainland shore. WIth a whoop and a holler, Icarus followed, taking time to circle the town below and share his opinion of the king, before flying out of the reach of the archers and joining his father over the sea.

Their flight took them along the path of the wind, well above the waves below and the ships that passed through them. They overtook and startled a flock of surprised gulls, and flew on as the day grew brighter and the sun rose steadily higher.

The sun.

Icarus contemplated it as it rose in the sky. It was an inspiring thing on the ground, but here in the air it was more than merely inspiring. Its light was brighter, so that he could see every detail on his arm more clearly. He could feel its heat more keenly, so that it warmed him more deeply. It was foreboding and dangerous, but welcoming at the same time.

He flew higher.

"Icarus," his father called from below. "Not so high!"

For a moment, he hesitated and nearly descended to his father's level, but then he stayed himself. He could hear the music of the sun where he was flying, and it was an invigorating thing, a vibrant tenor voice accompanied by pipes and a steady beat like horse hooves. His arms had been growing tired from flying, yet now they felt not rested but renewed. He was not stronger than before, but the sun gave him more endurance than he had known.

He imagined the world from the vantage of the sun, and saw at once how imaginary the boundaries were among the different city-states of Greece. What was Crete? What Sparta, or Athens or Thebes? All were Greece, and all the people in them were Greeks, born ultimately from the same rocks that Deucalion and Pyrrha had thrown over their shoulders.

"Icarus!" a voice called.

Inspired he lifted his head and unwitting flew closer to the awesome chariot of the sun. The light here was brighter still, the warmth was deeper, and his view was grander. There were lands beyond Achaea, beyond Peloponnesia, beyond even Persia. There were peoples who lived there, ignorant of Zeus and Olympus, and yet the sun visited them as well, lighting their days, growing their crops and watching over them from dawn to desk.

There was a voice Icarus heard, from afar off. It was shouting a warning about something, but its words were faint nonsense. The sun was calling him, further up and further in, and so he went.

The light was impossibly bright now. He could see not just the hairs on his skin, but the muscles beneath the skin as well, and the bones that they were stretched over. The music of the sun was now all he could hear, but he was beginning to understand the meaning of its song. Crete was special, it sang; and Athens was special. But all lands were special, and all lands were loved, for the same sun to visit each one in its turn. Icarus could see the whole world turning below him, its kingdoms and empires too numerous for him to count; and in the light of that awesome sun and its all-consuming fire he saw the people as they were, and loved them; and as he flew higher still, a hand reached out and took his, and his mortality burned away.

Thursday, December 03, 2020

Advent: Known

There are many creatures in the world that impart wisdom, and chief among these is the oliphaunt. Unique among God's creatures, the oliphaunt is a walking revelation and no one who beholds its glory is left unchanged.

When the oliphaunt came to town, four blind people went to meet it, hoping it would impart understanding and their lives would be changed forever after. But because wisdom is limited to what one knows, and what one knows is often only what one thinks, they decided to meet afterward, share their experiences, and grow.

The first blind man by chance had approached the oliphaunt from the front. He had felt its large ears, like the wings of a bat; run fingers over its leathery face; and mourned the great deformity that had put a tail in its face. But he marveled at how gently the oliphaunt wrapped him in its arm, and at the cool water it could rain on him; and he knew he had met a noble beast.

"I can think of nothing uglier than it, but there is no mistaking its great and gentle heart," he said. "We should always set aside our misfortunes and treat those around us kindly."

The second blind man was surprised, because he had found the oliphaunt by a leg and concluded there had been four of them.

"They were broad, like trees; and they worked together, to hold aloft some burden that would have been too much for any one of them alone," he said. "And so it should be with us, always together."

The third was unimpressed. He had walked up behind the oliphaunt.

"It was like a rope. When I pulled it, it lashed me in the face so i fell to the ground and it dumped a pile 
of excrement on me," he said. "It seems to me the lesson is to teach people a lesson when they bother you so they don't do it again.

And the fourth? She had walked under the oliphaunt, perceiving its presence but nothing of its shape. It seemed to her that there was nothing to the oliphaunt at all, and that was all the wisdom it had to offer as well.

Tuesday, December 01, 2020

Advent: Kindle


Think of faith for a moment as a flame. What does it look like?

Is it in a cloth, soaked in oil and wrapped around a stick that you're using to keep wild animals at bay? Is it a candle, carried gently in front of you as you walk to your room through dark corridors? Maybe it's a friendly, warming campfire that you and your family encircle in your sleep; or it could be a raging blaze that is clearing out the dead brush so new life can transform the terrain in a few short months.

Or maybe it's the tiny glow at the tip of a match, strong enough to burn your fingers if you're careless, but ready to out --pffft! with one contrary wind or drop of water.

A week ago I was talking with a friend about the ways the church has given faith a sentimental gloss with popular language about friendship with Jesus or having a talk with God.

"When's the last time you had pizza with Jesus? Literally." My friend is a pastor, and I watched as the impulse to give me a church answer rose to his lips, and then I watched as he shoved it to one side because he knew I would never go for it. 

"When's the last time you asked God something in prayer and you  heard him answer, and didn't check yourself into the hospital for a potential schizophrenic episode?" I asked him. "Literally."

Faith in some ways must always be like that tiny match if it's to be honest. Doubt and confidence are strange companions, but the Bible declares them to be the essential components in the alloy it calls faith, which the author of Hebrew, whoever she (or they) may have been, called the "assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen" (Hebrews 11:1). 

The torch, the candle, the campfire and the runaway inferno all have one thing in common: They began an small as the flame on the match, but someone saw their potential, and added the kindling.




Copyright © 2020 by David Learn. Used with permission.



Monday, November 30, 2020

Advent: Presence

The difficulty in connecting with the Transcendent is that it is, well, transcendent. How can the mundane understand the sublime? It’s like a butterfly experiencing the flame, or a slug experiencing flight. The Tao that can be perceived is not the eternal Tao.

And yet Advent marks the waiting for a time when the Tao made itself known, and  the Transcendent drew close. By walking in its path, by moving our feet in the same way its footsteps once fell, we close the distance between one another and find ourselves drawn into the presence that draws nearer to us. 

Writing for me can be a powerful if solitary way to experience that presence. But I love music also. Sacred music, secular, high or low, those distinctions often matter little. 

The other night my daughter and I were in the car, and one of us started to sing. The other joined in. Voices melded in harmonies all the lovelier for their imperfections. Breathing synched up. Heartbeats fell in step with one another. Spirits soared. 

In drawing close to one another through the shared experience of a song, we allowed ourselves to be drawn into the presence of something much older, much wiser and much truer than ourselves individually or even corporately. 

When we do this purposefully, we call it worship; and the Transcendent makes itself known in our    midst.


Copyright © 2020 by David Learn. Used with permission.



Sunday, November 29, 2020

Advent: Open


There’s a certain comfort in closed doors. If the way is barred, you never need to worry what’s on the other side. It’s blocked off and inaccessible. Going that way is not an option. 

But when it’s open? There’s the rub. An open path may lead to adventure, or it may yield nothing more exciting than a cardboard box. Knowledge, fortune, opportunity, loss, destruction and dragons may all lie ahead when the path is open, but you’ll never know until you explore. 

Fortune favors the bold.



Copyright © 2020 by David Learn. Used with permission.



Sunday, March 22, 2020

Lent: Celebrate

The whole family was home for dinner today. There was no work, no play dates, no art, no internship.

There was beef stew. We called friends and put them on speakerphone so they could join us for a meal at a safe distance.

Dinner was loud, it was raucous, it was unruly. It was everything a family meal should be.

God, how I've missed this.

Saturday, March 21, 2020

Lent: Listen

Sometimes I think that as writers we get so used to metaphor and symbolism that we forget that words have actual, primary meanings.

It's descriptive if I tell you that Kevin is a vulture. And if I tell you that he followed Ron patiently for hours, circling around as the other man looked for shelter, for assistance, for rescue; well, you know what sort of man Kevin is. And if I tell you that Kevin and his companions descended on Ron as soon as he fell, and didn't leave until they had picked his carcass clean, well that just settles the matter.

Lawyers can be awful people, and Kevin is Exhibit A why.

But words have literal meaning as well. A vulture is bird that eats carrion rather than hunting, and one that has the untoward habit of finding animals that aren't quite dead yet, and then waiting patiently. It's no wonder we use them to malign people we don't like.

Today's photo and word prompt is listen. This does not mean "understand a different point of view,' nor "imagine you are someone else," nor "put yourself in another's shoes." It means "engage in auditory practices that allow you to hear what someone else is saying, and process the meaning of those words."

Listen.

(It seems strange that someone would read a meditation on listening, and also that the word listen would be a prompt for photography, but here we are.)

Listen.

There were a thousand sounds assaulting my ears today, and a thousand messages demanding my attention. So many of them aimed to stoke fear. This virus will drive society to collapse -- buy a gun to protect yourself! Wear a mask! Don't come inside! We can't trust China! The economy is collapsing! The president is an idiot! The media are lying to you!

Listen.

Today I listened to a quieter voice that led me outside. I dug up some of the day lilies that came from my great-grandparents' farm in Cambria Mills, and I moved them to the back yard. I cleaned up trash. I prepared the earth where I intend to plant lettuce, peas and spinach in the next few days. I pulled up weeds.

I listened.

There were no butterflies yet to eavesdrop on, but I did hear a few birds, quietly singing to themselves in the maples. My neighbor was preparing his motorbike for riding weather, and i listened  as it roared its triumph across the neighborhood, I listened as a man stood on the sidewalk across the street and told a woman in her house what supplies he had bought and left on the porch for her.

I listened, and I heard the sound of a new spring unfolding; of life continuing in its familiar routines, however altered; and I heard the soft declarations of compassion, love and basic decency from one human to another.

We're all weighed down right now, sometimes for fear of what the next few weeks will bring; sometimes by the oppressive loneliness of being stranded at home when we want to be at work, at school, or at play; and sometimes by other worries and anxieties we either don't know how or are reluctant to express.

If that's you, reach out. A burden shared is a burden lightened. Talk with me.

I'll listen.

Lent: See

Eyesight seems so arbitrary.

A few days ago I was at the park with a group from my social work agency. As I was pushing him on the swing and talking with him, one of our child clients saw something that caused him distress.

'That's a bad word someone wrote over there," he said.

"Where?" I asked.

"Don't you see it?"

"No."

We kept at this for way longer than was necessary, and the boy became more and more agitated that I couldn't see what he did. I tried explaining about different lines of sight, unclear directions, all the things there were at a park where something could be written.

None of it made a difference. He was distressed that I couldn't see something that he found blindingly obvious. At one point he despaired there was something wrong with him for seeing things other people couldn't, and then I saw it.

One of our local artists had tagged some of the playground equipment in spraypaint with the letters A-S-S.

A little older and more jaded about urban graffiti than my companion, I didn't share his moral umbrage but our patience had paid off. At least we both saw the same thing.

It seems sometimes these days that we all agree there's only one right way to see things -- and it's not the way those other people see it. We fight like crazy, call each other names,and try to argue one another into seeing things the way we do. In the end we're further than ever from agreement, and we often walk away from fracases, head held high, chip on shoulder, convinced of our rightness more than ever and viewing our opposition with disdain and contempt.

Maybe we're doing this wrong.

Maybe we see things differently, big stuff, little stuff and even foundational stuff, because we're meant to.

The writers of the Hebrew Scriptures depicted heaven as a court where God would make a declaration, and one of the angels would take an opposing view. In the ensuing debate, deeper truths would emerge that everyone could see, agree to, and support.

There's no suggestion from Scripture that God took affront to what arguably was a challenge to his own wisdom. There's no indication that God did anything but consider the adversarial viewpoint, give the other party a chance to make his case, and then weigh those arguments and their supporting evidence on their own merits.

No, we probably won't change anyone's mind this way. But if we take the time to see things from one another's eyes, we can end a lot of division and heartache, and we can all grow a little wiser in the process.


Copyright © 2020 by David Learn. Used with permission.




Wednesday, March 18, 2020

Lent: Sent

I got this magazine in the mail, as I have almost every month for the past 30 years.

It's not that I'm a raging "Reader's Digest" fan. My mother signed me up for a gift subscription when I moved out, and she's renewed the subscription every year. And so, every month, it gets sent to me.

I doubt very much that the magazine is conscious of what drove my mother to send me a subscription. For my part, I scarcely think of what actions follow this decision: the invoicing, the postage, the sorting, the department budgets fueled and funded by other subscriptions and sales, and the advertising that depends on those other numbers to succeed. Nor do I imagine the magazine is aware of its reception, that my daughter often has been the first to see it, first to remove its plastic wrapper, first to read whatever section appeals to her.

I just open the mailbox,and there it is, a fading relic of American right-of-center values, an unstated reminder that mom cares and is staying connected with us. Sent as ordered,  and duly received to fulfil its purpose.

Tuesday, March 17, 2020

Lent: Light

Sleep is no comfort to the well-rested,
Water brings no relief to those who are not thirsty.
Food has no use for the well-fed,
And more light is wasted on those who live in the sun.

Do not begrudge the weary a moment of sleep.
Give a drink and more to those who are parched.
Give your bread to the hungry, and your meat too.
And light a match in the darkest places.

Monday, March 16, 2020

Lent: Revealed

About 30 years ago, I woke my roommate up talking i my sleep.

I'd been reading the "The Brothers Karamazov," and was trying to figure out which of the two main suspects it was who had killed old Karamazov, and why. I'd been knee-deep in the novel for two weeks, and it was driving me nuts.

The reveal is one of the great things about mysteries. Who can watch "The Unicorn and the Wasp' and not want to know who tried to kill Donna, poison the Doctor and murder Lady Eddison's son? For that matter, who can read any Agatha Christie novel and not wait for the moment when the killer is unmasked and brought to justice? We all love it when the truth comes out.

Lent is meant to be a period of reveals. Certainly its focus on fasts is meant to bring us to a place where we are open to experiencing the transcendent through incremental revelations and gains in understanding. But any time of contemplation also leads us to understand ourselves better.

There's a story told in these parts about a man who hid himself so well that no one knew who he was, not even he himself. But he grew in understanding and in time his commitment to the truth revealed not only who he was, but everyone else as well.

The truth, once revealed, set people free.

What truth is revealed about and within you?

Sunday, March 15, 2020

Lent: Celebrate

Here's a neat little observation about celebrations: They always require other people

Fourth of July cookouts. Bat mitzvahs. Graduation parties. Thanksgiving dinner. Wedding receptions. They all involve food, but more importantly they include the presence of loved ones.

You don't even need a reason. Just gather some friends and some family around, and enjoy one another's company. You'll celebrate in no time.

Saturday, March 14, 2020

Lent: Fruit

Fruit is an odd photo prompt for mid-March. We still have six weeks to go until last frost in this state. We're just getting started planting cold weather crops like lettuce and peas. Fruit won't grow on the trees until July.

These little fellows came here from Mexico. My daughter likes to snack on them, and I was able to get them at the store on Tuesday before the leagues started canceling games and everyone started to realize how ill-prepared we were for a pandemic.

The rush on stores the past several days are fruit too, born of the seeds we planted months and years ago, to elect someone unqualified for office, to wait idly by when news of the virus first surfaced in China, not to store items sooner, not to store our own surplus produce from last summer's garden, not to garden at all.

Every moment of our lives, we sow the seeds of the future. Every moment we harvest the fruit of the seeds we sowed in the past, or that others sowed before us.

Sometimes the seed fails, and other times it's a bumper crop we'll be eating for years to come.


Copyright © 2020 by David Learn. Used with permission.



Friday, March 13, 2020

Lent: Work

Lots to do this coming week, There's paperwork to catch up on for my internship, assignments coming due for class, and projects that while not due yet, are now visible on the horizon.

Then there's the never-ending procession of work and projects that happen when you live in New Jersey have a family, and own a house. It never stops.

And then there are the other thing we do, to give life meaning and purpose.

Work is a good thing. It was one of the first gifts given in Paradise.

Work while it is still light; night is coming when no one can work.


Copyright © 2020 by David Learn. Used with permission.


Thursday, March 12, 2020

Lent: Seeks

There’s a saying attributed to Jesus in the gospels that goes like this: Seek and you shall find; knock, and the door will be opened; ask, and the gift shall be given.”

It all begins with our determination to seek. An old woman tears apart her house looking for the money she’d planned to live off in her old age. A jeweler looks for the deal of a lifetime. A heartsick father goes searching highways and ditches for his headstrong absent child.

The tricky thing about seeking is that what we think we're looking for and what we find aren't always the same thing. We tell everyone we want to climb the mountain; we may even describe with fascination the road to the peak and the wonders that wait at the top. But all the while, our feet tell a different story; the path we choose day to day takes us to the beach instead of even to the foothills.

Why the discrepancy? It's a question many of us face halfway to the finish line. Maybe we really do want to stand above the snowline and plant our flag there, in which case we need to make major changes and reset our daily priorities in order to realize our dreams. Maybe we once desired the blazing glory of the mountaintop but have a discovered a softer glory in obscurity. Or maybe we still want it, but have lost our way and are fighting a contrary current to push our way back and seek what was lost before it's too late and opportunity is gone forever.

What is it you seek? And are you seeking it in such a way that it will be found?


Copyright © 2020 by David Learn. Used with permission.







Wednesday, March 11, 2020

Lent: Spring

Down by the foot of our driveway is a maple tree growing on a small strip of grass between the sidewalk and the road on an easement the city owns that runs through our front yard.

The tree is about fifteen high, with a canopy that spreads over our flower bed, our driveway and the neighbor's, and a piece segment of the road big enough to park a car under, during the summer. Part of this spread is because, about 6 feet from the ground, the tree trunk forks into three co-dominant stems, and each segment grows about 120 degrees from each of its sisters.

Or they used to. About nine years ago, Hurricane Irene came through the area, canceling flights, flooding low-lying areas and generally being a hurricane. A week after the storm had passed, the old girl dropped one of her three stems, kerplunk, right onto the road.

The city (eventually) came and carted the fallen branch away, and in the nine years since, the tree has continued to grow new leaves every spring, stretch its arms out a little wider and stand a little taller ... as the wound where the missing stem grew becomes a little worse, and more and more of the lesser branches on the surviving stems wither and die under the strain.

We always think of spring as a time of new beginnings and renewal, but that's a hollow promise to some. It must be awful when you don't know you're already dead.


Copyright © 2020 by David Learn. Used with permission.


Valley of Dry Bones

 If you had ten minutes to talk with any one person in the Bible, whom would you talk to?


Would you talk theology with Paul? Ask Jesus to explain why it has to hurt so much? Maybe you'd ask Joshua what it was like to see the walls of Jericho fall, or Moses how he felt to see Pharaoh's army drown and know that Israel was really and finally free.


Go ahead and ask David to talk about courage, or ask Daniel about lions. I want to hear what they tell you. As for me, I want to talk to one of those nameless multitudes in Ezekiel's valley.


"What was it like?" I want to ask. "How did you end up in the valley? Did someone lead you there, or was it just an accident? Were all those other people with you, or did you think you were going there by yourself?"


And what was it like in the valley? It seems like such a desolate place by the time Ezekiel found it, but what did it look like when you arrived? Did you stay because it seemed beautiful, or was it so barren that you just gave up?


It must have been a dreadful experience being dead in a place like that. All around you are neighbors with stories like your own, but it's impossible to share them because birds have eaten the tongue you once used to tell them, and you've lost the ears that would have understood anything that was spoken.


So you just lay there in the valley, as the the sun slowly rises in the east, inches his way across the sky, and then goes to sleep at night. Years pass that way until all your flesh has blown away; your bones are bleached and white, picked clean by worms; and you lie there forgotten even to yourself, no name, no story, not even a clear claim to which bones are yours and which belong to your neighbor.


Until one day that man appeared in the valley, and impossible things happened. The valley shook, the rattling of bones echoed from the hills, and the legions of the dead remembered who they were. Shins to femurs. Femurs to hips. Vertebra to vertebra. All across the ground, dust swirled, organs grew, sinews knitted themselves once more to frames, skin stretched itself over bodies, and the bodies stood and to a one, they all remembered how to breathe.

Tell me about that moment. Everything else I want to know pales in comparison.

Tuesday, March 10, 2020

Lent: Drink


A walk in the woods never seems too bad when you're starting early enough. With the birds providing accompaniment to the rising sun and the air still heavy with dew, it's easy to feel the worst part isn't the thought of a few more stolen moments under the covers, but that annoying fellow nearby who keeps singing "Here Comes the Sun" and cheerfully mangling the words.

And you set out, the mist still hanging over the trail and snaking through the ferns, your spirits are high. Who can blame you for singing every Eagles song you can think of, from "Lyin' Eyes" and "Take It Easy" on down through "Take it to the Limit."

But after a while, silence sounds nice too. So you give your throat a rest, and you keep walking. You're still feeling fine, and the hike is easy; but it's a quiet time now. A more thoughtful time.

By noon your feet are feeling tired, your legs are a little sore, and though it's not time to stop, efforts to buoy the spirit with a few Beatles songs failed. For the life of you, you don't remember the second verse to "Yellow Submarine," can't think of how "Nowhere Man" starts and every time you start on one of the classic early Beatles songs, you start wondering what it means when Paul McCartney said he was the walrus.

When it turns two o'clock, you're sweating so profusely that your shirt sticks to you like a second skin. It's the heat of the day. You keep wiping the sweat from your eyes with you arm, but it doesn't make a difference. It just keeps coming in rivulets that leave you irritated and grouch at everyone you think of.

By three in the afternoon your head hurts, your throat is too sore to sing even if you wanted, and your entire body feels jostled about, You're walking,but it's on automatic. You're no longer sweating; you're just hot, and your skin feels too tight. Your eye is starting to twitch.

And then at four, someone hands you a glass of water. It is the most wonderful thing you have ever had,

You open your mouth and pour the water in. Half of it falls on your dried and dirty shirt, but you don't care. It tastes like standing outside in rainfall, and every drop that you drink explodes inside you like sunlight. The second glass is even better than the first, and the third is like the second. Your mind sharpens, your limbs surge with vitality, and at once you want to laugh, and dance and sing.

To the thirsty, a drink of water is like health to the dying. It's a new chapter in a favorite book, a gift of laughter to the lonely.

Drink your fill.

#rethinkchurch

Monday, March 09, 2020

Lent: Journey



Was it the years, or the mileage?

It was a question the pilgrim had asked himself more times than he could count. There was the night he had fled his city, driven half-mad with a desire to leave, spurred on by the words of the stranger who had come to town: “Flee the wrath that is to come.”

He had walked through one pair of shoes after another, until finally the soles of his feet themselves were as thick as any shoe’s he had owned, so perhaps it was the miles. The road had led him ever onward, over hill and dale, through strange terrain, through strange lands, until his legs which had ached with the distance no longer ached even at the thought of what was to come. 

On the other hand, maybe it was the years for the journey had aged the pilgrim more than he had expected it would. There were the expected challenges like the sand pit, but he’d also faced horrors that had crawled out of his worst nightmares when he’d passed through the Valley of Shadows. He’d arrived at waystations as the sun had set, and slept; but when he woke in the morning the hostels were gone and in their place he was left with visions that left him with a lingering foreboding. 

And of course there had been the long and thirsty night deep in the forest with the enchantress by the well. She’d offered him a drink, if only he’d sign his name in her guest book first. 

It had been a long journey, and it still wasn’t at an end. More years awaited the pilgrim on the road, and so did the miles. His final destination, always on his mind, still seemed as distant as it did the day he’d begun. 

He knew he’d make it there, eventually, the same way he’d started. 

One step, and one day, at a time. 

#rethinkchurch.

Sunday, March 08, 2020

Lent: Celebrate

Lent often is associated with foregoing pleasures and some manner of fast -- no meat on Fridays, if you're Catholic; and none on Wednesdays either, if you're a traditional Catholic -- but Sunday is always a day for celebration.

Our lives are rounded out with celebrations, and we mark those celebrations with the food that we eat.

We enter the world to celebration. We drink our mothers' milk while our families feed on meals provided by supportive friends.

Each year we celebrate our lives with cake and choice foods.

We round out our holidays and holy days with the foods that have been selected by our elders. Bitter herbs, corn on the cob and roast turkey.

And when the time comes for us to leave, our loved ones gather around to celebrate our lives with one last feast in our honor.

The life we are given is good, and we celebrate it together with good food, in good abundance. The Hebrew Bible is filled with feasts of Trumpets, tabernacles, first grains and more. The Kingdom of God is a celebration with food, music and dancing, not a joyless and spartan affair.

Fill your plate and raise your glass. Celebrate!


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Saturday, March 07, 2020

Lent: Saved

There’s a great scene in Terry Pratchett’s “Mort” where Death, on a fishing holiday, pulls another fisherman from the river before he can drown. The man is grateful, but confused by Death’s parting words. “What did he mean by ‘Save you for later?’”

Savings aren’t just about rescuing in the here and now. They’re also about savoring hereafter. We save money and forego immediate gratification now to pay for expensive things later: a gift, a vacation, an overdue visit to a friend.

The rescue matters now: the fisherman does not drown, the money doesn’t go to waste, the opportunity is not squandered. But when there’s saving involved, you can bet there’s a longtime benefit, deep satisfaction and real enjoyment on the way.


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Friday, March 06, 2020

Lent: Testify

"When I use a word," Humpty Dumpty once famously told Alice, "it means just what I choose it to mean — neither more nor less."

My daughter has taken this to heart. She insists it's not a problem, and usually it's not. People will figure out that you mean "sweatshirt" even though you keep calling it a "sweater," but if you start referring to trucks as cars, computers as elephants and left as right, you're going to sow a lot of semantic anarchy.

We testify about what we know and to what we have seen, but our testimony as only reliable as our words. Even if we're not shameless liars who let the moment's impulse trump the truth on a regular basis, the words we use can affect our testimony. Clumsy word choice, an unusual or unexpected point of view, lubricational slang, or an unfamiliar language -- they can all affect how our message is received and whether our testimony is understood.

Another thing about testimony. Whatever we offer, and how we offer it, stands as a testament about us. What does our testimony say, when we testify to what we know?


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Thursday, March 05, 2020

Lent: Teacher

The best, most memorable teachers I’ve had generally didn’t impart knowledge.

Sometimes they’ve shared an insight or an observation, but mostly what they do is state the blindingly obvious in such a way that we’re drawn up short and realize “I never thought of it that way.” When they're really good, they don't even do that. They just ask a question, and we do the rest of the work for them.

What teachers teach is not information, nor even a new perspective, but a way of finding both. As that lesson slowly sinks in, we grow aware of how we think, and how how we think limits our thinking.

In the end the best teachers grow silent and let us learn on our own and from our fellow students and journeymen.

May your life by a lifetime of learning and a lifetime of teaching. And in the end, aren’t they the same?


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Wednesday, March 04, 2020

Lent: Spirit

The wind comes like the breath of a lion, and leaves with the sigh of a lamb. We hear it approach, and we feel it come upon us; but we can mark neither its coming nor its going.

Buds swell in the spring and soon burst into flowers and leaves, and then branches hang heavy with fruit. In the morning breath fills the lungs of us all, beast and human alike. When night comes breath departs and the flesh grows still, yet no one knows where the breath has gone.

Flesh is born of flesh and returns to dust, but spirit is born of spirit and with spirit evermore remains.

Will these bones rise and dance, and will the dust echo once more with the music of singing? The spirit blows where it will, and we must answer.


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Tuesday, March 03, 2020

Lent: Enter

Sometimes it seems like doors should come with an advisory label,

Doors mark the transition between one place and another. Cross the threshold and everything changes. You may go from a confident teen in her own space to a daughter trying to navigate a web of complicate relationships with parents and siblings; or from a confident educator to a nervous adult all alone with 20 hostile children. On this side of the door you're one thing; on the other side, you may be something entirely different.

And yet it's precisely the change waiting on the other side that makes a door so alluring. So many stories begin with the decision to go through a door. Richard Mayhew goes through a door and finds himself in an unfamiliar London with black friars, velvets, a floating market and a Down Street that leads to the Angel Islington. The Pevensie children enter a wardrobe and find themselves in a land where it's been winter for a hundred years. Bilbo walks out his front door and finds himself on a road that leads to the Lonely Mountain, self-discovery, and a ring, the least of all rings, merely a trifle that Sauron fancies.

Doors are an invitation to explore in ways that mere hallways and open spaces are not, and Opportunity waits on the other side to help us grow, to transform us, and to make us beautiful.

The door was shut, but now as you stand there, it opens and a loud Voice calls out "Enter!"

The adventure of a lifetime awaits. The choice is yours.


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Monday, March 02, 2020

Lent: Signs

Hundreds of years ago, ravens developed a reputation as birds of ill omen. The birds, which feast on carrion, had discovered that when armies of humans moved with horses and siege engines, they would lead the birds to a massive picnic.

The peasants on the ground would look up at the sky darkening with blackbirds and shudder as they felt death gather its cloak around the countryside. Like the ravens, they had learned to recognize the signs and knew what they meant.

Signs are shy on details but good as general indicators for what's to come. When the clouds grow heavy, we know it's going to rain; when people stop going out to eat, we know the economy is going to shrink; and when the first tender shoots of flowers burst through the mulch we know spring is near.

Red in the morning is a shepherd's warning. A cold wind from the northeast brings heavy rain. God keeps the particulars to himself, but he has painted signs of his purpose on heaven and earth and on the canvas of the human heart.

Open your eyes and open your ears. What signs do you see, and what are they telling you?


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Sunday, March 01, 2020

Lent — Celebrate

Got a flat on the way to church today. Disappointing. It’s the sort of thing to put a Pollyanna gloss on and pretend it’s a blessing in disguise and cause to celebrate. But it’s not. It’s just annoying.

AAA sent a tow truck driver who was there in 30 minutes and knew a place that was open and could fix me up. Convenient, nice. Not a celebration.

Sundays are days of celebration, even amid the Lenten fast. God wants to eat well, to drink well, to party and to celebrate like the match that flares to life and drives back the darkness. We live! We love! God draws near! Celebrate.


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Saturday, February 29, 2020

Lent: Serve

It's the poor one's idea of wealth to spoil himself with luxury and to fill his life with gaudy baubles; the truly wealthy spend their wealth to change the world around them for the better.

The weak envision strength as the opportunity to belittle, bully and humiliate their opponents. Those who have strength are confident in it and see no need to waste it on detractors, and use their strength instead to lift up those who can never repay them.

Those without talent boast endlessly about their accomplishments, and those with neither vision nor capacity to lead surround themselves with craven admirers who croak their praises all day long like a chorus of toads.

The most successful ventures are made possible by people whose contributions we never see. The news commentator whose show bears his name would never make it to air if someone didn't empty his wastebasket each week. The billionaire would have no corporation if it weren't for the hourly workers he's left struggling to make ends meet. The state dinner and G7 conference would have foundered without people working in the kitchen, chopping carrots, grinding pepper and plucking chickens.

Who are greatest and the most important? Don't look in the halls of status and power. Learn to look instead in the lowest of places, for the battered wife holding it together for her children, for the custodian mopping the floor everyone walks on without a second thought, for the nameless waitress who brings you pancakes and coffee in the morning.

Look for those who serve and escape notice entirely, and be dazzled by how close they are to heaven.


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Friday, February 28, 2020

Lent: Command

The Lent photo prompt for today is "command." We think of that as a verb, like God commands us to do something, or maybe as the command itself; i.e., "I am a jealous God. Do not put sausage links in your nose." But command is also a position or status. Jesus is in command.

In the book of Revelation, St. John of Patmos records a vision of the Lamb on a throne next to the throne of God, surrounded by four living creatures and a host of angels. There's been a lot of silliness written and spoken about this passage, but it's pretty straightforward: Jesus is on the throne at the center of the heavenly court. He is worthy to open the scroll and declare the will of God. Those four famous horsemen ride out when he wants them to.

Today popular preachers see that as Jesus enacting judgment on wicked people in the final days of the earth, but the ancients understood it differently. They saw that changes come, sometimes dramatic changes, but they're changes that come ultimately to advance God's purposes. The wicked may flourish and rule the nations for a while, but in the end it was God who placed them there and it is God who will remove them.

Things are unsettling, and it's okay to be concerned by them.

It's okay to feel the weight of what's going on, and to wonder what kind of future we're leaving to our children.

It's okay to be preoccupied by political corruption and by the cruel spite that guides our president, to be troubled by the news and the rumors that swirl around.

It's okay and it's normal to feel trepidation over a situation that seems to be getting worse and more uncertain all the time.

It's even okay to feel abandoned by people who said they were going to be there for you but then who weren't.

Don't feel bad when these things upset you. That's only normal.

But we walk through darkness and troubled waters holding the hand of a God who knows the way of old. The path is seldom easy and it isn't even always safe, but by faith we know the shore it's going to.


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Thursday, February 27, 2020

Lent: Wilderness

There used to be a forest here. Oak and hickory grew side by side as they brushed the tips of their fingers against the underbelly of heaven, while wolves and foxes hunted their prey through the shadows of the understory. Meanwhile the river nearby hid colonies of bivalves, played host to flocks of waterfowl and schools of fish navigated its waters.

The place was alive.

That's all gone now. The river is so polluted that we have signs warning against eating the fish. There are still birds, but they no longer darken the sky for hours at a time as they fly overhead. As for raccoons, they nest in the storm sewers instead of the hollows of trees.

We call ourselves the Garden State, but our chief crop is asphalt.

In the ancient world, cities were places of strength and security. They marked the evolution of the human mind, and provided the laboratory where we rubbed shoulders with one another and together grew our languages, politics, religion and philosophy. Wilderness was that desolate expanse between here and there, where jackals and demons lived. You went there at your own risk, because no one would be there to rescue you if the monsters came.

The city still holds a lot of the allure it did in years past, but I can't help but wonder as we pass through the city, alone in our own manufactured bubbles that keep us from one another, our private cars, our earbuds that say "Leave me alone" and our smart phones that keep us from seeing each other. I wonder if we haven't replaced one wilderness with another far lonelier than any the ancients knew.


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Wednesday, February 26, 2020

The Ash Wednesday holocaust

It started that June with a spark.

The spark found a dry place to take shelter and it grew, and grew. And grew. Before long it was a raging fire, consuming deadwood, undergrowth and everything else combustible that it could find. No one worried at first. Fires are a part of the life cycle of forests, and the National Park Service had a policy of letting them burn themselves out.

But as the fire grew, people started questioning that wisdom. Homes and lives were threatened, and before long the fire had created its own weather system, sucking in air to keep itself going, and triggering lightning strikes that caused still more fires.

That summer more than 25,000 firefighters from across the United States traveled to Yellowstone to contain the fire. By the time the fire drifted quietly to sleep, lulled by the soft winter snows of November of 1988, more than 1.2 million acres in the greater Yellowstone National Park area were in ashes.

As the winter passed, fears grew that the park -- the oldest in the nation -- had been destroyed. It wasn't just a horrible forest fire. It had been a holocaust.

Ashes are the gray ruins of beauty. Stream flowers in your hair and you look as lovely as a dryad in the spring. Streak ashes on your face and you're just filthy. Grass rolls when the wind blows, and trees sway; but ashes just spread, covering everything in a fine layer of bitter.

Ashes mark the end of things. They're the funeral, the dissolution of life's chemistry, the final debasement. Oh, look, it's a pile of ashes! Was this a cedar tree, a house, or Aunt Sally? Can't tell. Move on, move on.

Except a phoenix, when its end comes, will burst into flames, crumble into ashes, and then emerge as its own chick.

Tragic ending. Beautiful beginning.

So it was at Yellowstone. As spring came in 1989 it brought with it an explosion of new life. Ground that hadn't felt sunlight in decades brought forth a new arrangement of plants, fueling an explosion of insects and the birds that ate them. Rivers teemed with fish. Wildflowers and wild grasses burst from soil laden with new depths of carbon, so that herds of grazing animals swelled in number and grew fat.

There is a lesson here.

Today is Ash Wednesday, the day we come together and recall the things that we have endured, together and as individuals.

The consuming fire was intense. It was more than we were ready for, and we thought it would destroy us. When we stood in the ashes left in its wake, we thought it had, and we wept.

Have faith. The ashes are only the beginning. In time we will find ourselves transformed and made into something more beautiful than we can remember ever being in the past.


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